VA fan!!!!!!!!!!!!

A lifetime

ROCK ON guys...........

Mamma

Idag är det MORS dag....
Mamma, jag tänker på dig och minns alla dagar vi hade tillsammans....

Vi ses i Nangijala.

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Till alla andra mammor, jag vet att ni gör det bästa jobbet ni kan med Era barn, det viktigaste för ett barn är trots allt att veta att föräldrarna älskar dem, det betyder inte alltid att man är hos dem varje dag eller träffar dem så mycket som det går, det kan handla om att SÄGA "JAG ÄLSKAR DIG", inga ord värmer mer än så.

Hoppas alla mina läsare får en bra dag i alla fall (om nu någon är här och läser idag), idag ska jag lämna mina småkillar till DERAS mamma i alla fall.

Tack för idag....

Andnöd

Den är uttjatad, den spelas överallt.

Men den VAR vår och jag får en klump i halsen, kramp i magen och svårt att andas när jag hör den.
Den kommer alltid att påminna.....

I wish you

Open the window
Let the sunset in
If only for the last time
Let me see you smile again

I'll take my records
You can have your books
I'm sorry I never read them
But it says so much about us

Always trying
To make love out of care
The perfect recipe
But something wasn't there

Sunrays and Saturdays
Perfect starry nights
Sweet dreams and moonbeams
And a love that's warm and bright
Sunrays and Saturdays
Friendship strong and true
Oceans of blue and a room with a view
To live the life you choose

You'll write me letters
I'll call you on the phone
A wire away from touching
And never quite alone

We'll get to know ourselves again
And we'll heal our hearts
It's not that we're bad together
We're just better off apart

Always trying
To have one and one make two
And even though it never worked
I still feel love for you.............

It's been awhile

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been a while
since i could call you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
since i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile
Since I could lok at myself straight
and it's been awhile
since i said i'm sorry
It's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
I know it's me i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while since i said i'm sorry

3 timmar

Händelserik dag

Tankarna är hos dig idag, vet vad du går igenom.
Hälsa din mamma och tänk på att jag tänker på dig.
Hade så gärna varit där för dig. Varit ditt stöd och din tröst.

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Jag ligger under nålen några timmar idag...

Men först ska jag jobba en stund.

Allas RÄTT och.... fel kanske?

Alla har rätt till värdighet, men vad gör en värdig till vissa saker, men inte till andra?

Hur mycket man är värd mot sig själv avgörs av hur mycket man offrar sig för andra, gentemot hur mycket man själv konsumerar av sina uppoffringar.

Kan man bara få? Eller måste man våga ge för att kunna få ibland?

Jag skriver detta för jag har själv varit den som bara tar och tar utan att egentligen GE det jag borde, våga ge min kärlek på riktigt till någon.

Tro mig jag VET att det gör ONT att ge sin kärlek till någon som sen bara kastar bort den, men jag anser numera att det enda sättet att njuta fullt ut i ett förhållande är att ge sig fullständigt hän.....

Oj vad djup jag blev idag.... men ja jag tänker mycket och då känner jag att bloggen är min kanal att rensa tankarna och få dem på pränt.

Mitt förra inlägg handlar inte om att vägra någon dennes rätt att behålla sin värdighet, det handlar mer om att jag vill att man ska VÅGA säga det man känner, det ÄR inte fult att säga jag vill ha dig kvar, eller jag vill att du åker hem.

Kanske borde jag inte ifrågasatt saken utan bara stannat eftersom jag
"fick göra som JAG ville",
var det kanske ett test för att se vad JAG ville?
Jag ville stanna, men jag ville höra att jag var önskad kvar, inte stanna på nåder.

Hade jag VETAT att jag var önskad hade jag aldrig frågat en sån sak.
Än en gång har mitt dåliga självförtroende gjort att jag måste fråga.

Jag borde VETA att så snygg, sexig och bra som jag tidigare fått höra att jag är, så är det ingen tvekan om att jag är önskad kvar.

Det självförtroendet jag fick av att få höra det av den vackraste i världen, DET självförtroendet vill jag ha tillbaka igen.

nåja det var väl mest mina tankar om värdighet och så....


För er som undrar så hade jag den MYSIGASTE natten på mycket länge i lördags, så mycket pussar, kramar, smek och ömhet har jag inte känt på länge....
Så vill jag ha det ALLTID.................

Stolthet

ett ord hade räckt..... ETT!!!!

Varför så stolt?
Kunde bara sagt "stanna"...........


Blir så FÖRBANNAD,

Läs och lyssna på What hurts the most om du undrar vad jag pratar om.......

I wish

Right here by me............

hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you’re not here

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

This is our fate

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family.
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

What hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house,
that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what I was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade,
give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what I was tryin to do

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what I was tryin to do

I don't.........

A deeper meaning

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...

And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...

Complete.....

.....me again.

And I will complete your life.

What you need is what you will get...... i promise you my life forever...

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Sitter och undrar över "gamla" sms... för inte alls länge sedan fick jag DETTA:

"Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be. It could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you right here by me.... "

Var tog det vägen, vad hände?

Hur kan....

....en dag med så mycket glädjeämnen kännas så tom?

Doften av de underbara rapsfälten...

Den molnfria himlen, enbart befläckad av flygplanens drömframkallande streck.

Gladan som glider över mig när jag ligger och solar på gräset.

Plasket från plastpoolen där pojkarna leker.

Värmen från grillen på mina lår när jag grillar dagens lunch.

Kvittret från fåglarna i buskarna.

Göken som gal i skogen.

En motorgräsklippare som brummar lugnande i fjärran.

Duvornas kuttrande i grannens björk.

Solens strålar på min bara överkropp när jag ligger och solar i shortsen.

Ändå!
Ändå känns livet så okomplett just nu....

The light

You promised me our love will last forever
You stand by me to make our dreams come true
And now you say we can't go on together
The chemistry is gone for me and you

But I believe we still belong together
And all the dreams we make can still come true
If we can only try to make it better
we give our love a chance to make it true
I wonder why

Why can't we give each other our love
Unconditional true love
Look inside us for the light in our soul
Why can't we heal each others heart
Never let us fall apart
Look inside us for the light in our soul
light in our soul
light in our soul

I said that we were meant to be together
I haven't lost my faith in me and you
If we could only try and make it better
Give our love a chance to make it true
I wonder why

Why can't we give each other our love
Unconditional true love
Look inside us for the light in our soul
Why can't we heal each others heart
Never let us fall apart
Look inside us for the light in our soul
light in our soul

Why can't we give each other our love
Unconditional true love
Look inside us for the light in our soul
Why can't we heal each others heart
Never let us fall apart
Look inside us for the light in our soul
The light in our soul
The light in our soul
The light in our soul

The light in our soul

Damn it.......

can we try again
to start a new and lovely story
that will shine a ray of light upon our hearts
and bring back long lost glory
of how it used to be
baby you and me
convinced we were each others destiny

my heart cries out to you
you must forgive me
I've been dancing in the dark
and searching for a spark
a fire still burning
I believe we'll make it through
if you stand by me
we can weather any storm
and keep each other warm
as long as there's love

every time I think of us
my eyes are filled with tears
to think that I gave in to sweet temptation
his words like music to my ears
I hope it's not too late
that you still await
oh please tell me that you're still having faith

my heart cries out to you
you must forgive me
I've been dancing in the dark
and searching for a spark
of fire still burning
I believe we'll make it through
if you stand by me
we can weather any storm
and keep each other warm
as long as there's love

But faith is not mine
if I could I'd unturn
the hands of time

my heart cries out to you
you must forgive me
I've been dancing in the dark
and searching for a spark
I believe we'll make it through
If you stand by me
we can weather any storm
and keep each other warm
as long as there's love
never enough
love

Mirakel???

Jag var en spillra av mitt forna jag
Såg inte ljus, inte en strimma svag
En vingklippt fågel som inte ens drömmer mer
Som om sorger trycktes allt längre ner
Men när jag mötte dig älskling
Så ändrades allting
Brutalt

Visst finns mirakel
Och för mig är det faktiskt du
I dina kyssa öppnar himlen sig för mig nu
Visst finns mirakel
I din kärlek så stark och sann
I dina kyssar och i att vi har funnit varann

Du öppnar dörrar jag inte visste fanns
En dörr till livet, jag fick en andra chans
Jag älskar dig mer än du kan förstå
Jag vet du bär mig när jag inte orkar gå
Sen du gav mig din kärlek
Förändrades livet
Brutalt

Visst finns mirakel
Och för mig är det faktiskt du
I dina kyssa öppnar himlen sig för mig nu
Och allt
Är så enkelt och så självklart
Så skrämmande och underbart
Mitt mirakel är du
Visst finns mirakel
Och för mig är det faktiskt du
I dina kyssa öppnar himlen sig för mig nu
Visst finns mirakel
I din kärlek så stark och sann
I dina kyssar och i att vi har funnit varann

Jag har simmat för långt ut från land

Jag har simmat långt ut från land
och det skymmer
Det känns som om min kraft
kommer ta slut
Ska jag hålla i eller ska jag släppa
Jag har simmat för långt ut från land

Jag stod på en strand
där havet var klart och varmt
Jag var ett barn jag sprang
rakt ut i det glitterblå
Men havet blev djupt
det här havet blev djupt och kallt
Och det som var stort på håll
inte längre lika stort

Jag har simmat långt ut från land
och det skymmer
Det känns som om min kraft
kommer ta slut
Ska jag hålla i eller ska jag släppa
Jag har simmat för långt ut från land

Bär mig dit jag ska
Led mig den bit jag har kvar
Vem kan lämna en plats
han aldrig varit på
Bär mig dit jag ska
Led mig den bit jag har kvar
Om du ser mig
kom och möt mig då

Jag har simmat långt ut från land
och det skymmer
Det känns som om min kraft
kommer ta slut
Ska jag hålla i eller ska jag släppa
Jag har simmat för långt ut från land

...loved you all along ...

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

I CAN wait forever...........

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I

Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes,
I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I

Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it

I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can waitI can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...

You had me at hello...

You are so fine
And I would so much like for you to be mine

Right out there on the Internet
That’s where you and I met

I came to you, once last year
I had no hopes and no fear

Right there and then you made me realize
You where so beautiful, so lovely so nice

We had a short break just for us to see
That right from the start, it was You and Me

I couldn’t just look away and let you go
You know that – You had me at “Hello”